Today, I would like to share with you another testimony. This one involves one of my favorite Scriptures. This is the one that saved my life and my son's life, as well. It also made my Faith grow even stronger!
It all started when my dad passed away in November of 2012. I was staying at my parents' house in the country, with my son. My brother lived there, as well. We had a wood stove for heat. There was some hardwood left, but we were running low. That winter was fine, since my brother was there to help me.
In July of 2013, my brother decided to move in with his girlfriend. That left me and my son alone, in the house. There was so much to do and nobody to help me. That is, until my best friend came up from Florida to give me a hand. We cleaned out the garage completely and cleared some trees in the yard. It was beginning to look nice. A church in town was helping us with some hardwood, as fall approached us.
By the time December came around, my best friend left to go back to Florida. My son and I were ok for a while. Well, until February of 2014. The wood was very low, down to about 12 logs left. A member of the church in town brought me a truckload of hardwood. It was very nice to have wood, however it was damp from the snow. As I tried to keep the fire going, it would not get warm in the house. The wood would just smolder. There were no flames.
That winter was so cold, it was -40 below, with the wind chill! Unfortunately, it was 34 degrees inside the house! We were wearing our winter coats and covering up, cuddled together, with 2 comforters, just to stay warm. I ended up hanging blankets in some of the doorways, blocking off the bedrooms and the family room. The rooms that we used were the living room, where we slept, the kitchen and bathroom. It was getting bad, to the point where we almost froze to death inside the house.
I didn't have a vehicle, which wouldn't have helped anyway. I don't drive in the winter, do to panic disorders. If a deer would jump out in front of me, I would have slammed on the brakes and everyone knows, that is the worst thing to do on snow-covered, icy roads! Anyway, since I couldn't get anyone to help me, we were stranded inside the freezing house, with very little food. What we had left, I gave to my son. I went 4 days without eating.
One day, while my son was in school, I broke down and started crying, tremendously! I was giving up. My exact words were, "Oh God, I can't do this anymore! I'm so done! I give up! We are going to freeze to death here! I can't do it anymore! I don't know what else to do!" Right after I said this, my phone rang. It was my best friend, from Florida. (We did Bible studies over the phone a lot and he could always feel when something was wrong with me.) I answered the phone. He asked me right away, what was wrong. I told him I couldn't do it anymore. I let him know that I was giving up. I was SO done! He said, "OK. Open your Bible, to any page." I rolled my eyes. "I don't really want to do this right now. I'm not in the mood. I'm giving up and he wants me to read?" So I reluctantly opened my Bible. I looked at the top and it said Proverbs. "Now close your eyes and point." So I did, frustrated. "Now read it." Well, I opened my eyes and what I read saved my life! It was Proverbs 23:18... "There is surely a future hope for you and your hope will not be cut off." I closed my eyes and smiled. God was talking to me and telling me not to give up. It was going to get better. I sighed and thanked my best friend. We talked for a while and then we hung up. We lived one day at a time, until it started to warm up outside.
In June, a member of the church that was helping me with wood, came and picked us up. She brought us into town to look for an apartment. I got one that same day and was able to move into it that weekend! My son and I left the country, family home and never looked back!
It is amazing how God guides us in the right direction and how He holds our hand when we need him to. I know for a fact that if God wasn't with me, my son and I would have definitely died in that house! He knew I needed to hear Him. Proverbs 23:18 was how he got me to listen and I will be forever grateful to Him! Listening to God, saved my life!
I hope you enjoyed this testimony. I struggle with trying to forget the hardship we went through, but with God's help, I am now moving forward...and not looking back! Hope you have a wonderful day.
Take care and God bless,