Today I would like to share with you, one of my own testimonies. It happened almost 18 years ago. My son was born and I was so happy. The day that I was supposed to be released from the hospital, there was a complication. My son turned blue when they gave him the bottle, to feed him. They told me that his oxygen level was low and it wouldn't stay up. So, he was transferred to another hospital.
As days went by, he wasn't getting any better. My newborn, baby boy was on oxygen 24/7. He was hooked up to an oximeter monitor, apnea monitor, heart monitor and an IV. He also had a feeding tube in to get nutrition that he needed. I couldn't sleep, I couldn't eat. I stayed in the NICU with him from 5 AM to about 1 AM the next morning. This was every day. I was exhausted, but I didn't feel it. My mind was on him.
About 11 days later, I was reading a book, in a room that they made for me. (It was not in the NICU) At this time, it was about 4 AM in the morning. After praying and crying every night, for 11 days straight, I didn't know what else to do. As I was reading, I came across this story of a man talking to God. He said, "Why haven't you answered my prayers?" God said, "It was because you were praying with fear in your heart, you had doubt." I immediately got the chills and started to cry. That was exactly what I was doing! Quickly, I put the book down and got on my knees. This is what I prayed...
"Dear Heavenly Father, thank you for allowing me to understand. Thank you for helping me through this and for keeping us together. Lord, I can't do this on my own. I place my son in your hands now. Whatever you decide, I will accept. I might not like it, but I will accept it. I pray that you will heal him and allow me to raise him, Lord. It's up to you Lord. I say this in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen."
That was at 4:30 AM. I stood up and went to the bathroom to wash my face. Eventually, at 5 AM I headed to the NICU. It felt different. I wasn't crying anymore and it seemed lighter on my shoulders. I still was very hopeful as I walked towards the doors.
When I entered the room, there were 3 nurses surrounding his incubator. Immediately, I thought the worst! My legs felt weak and I began to tremble all over. I took a deep breath and let it out. Slowly, I walked towards them. I asked what was going on. This is what I was told...
"Hey! We're removing the feeding tube, because his oxygen level is staying in the high 90's. Dr. Frei wants us to remove the IV since he doesn't need it anymore."
I froze! It was like I was in a dream. I didn't know what to think. Then Dr. Frei came in and stood next to me, smiling. She asked me if they told me that my son was going to be placed in a regular crib. He no longer needed the incubator! I placed my hand over my mouth. As I thought about my prayer, I asked Dr. Frei what time he started turning around for the better. This is what she said...
"It's the darnest thing. It was around 4:30 this morning, he just started improving and his oxygen level never dropped after that! He ate from the bottle with no problems. His blood work came back normal and everything started looking great!"
I don't know if I was about to faint or if it was just me losing my balance, but I stepped back and hit the wall, sliding down and ended up on my knees, crying with relief. Right away they thought something was wrong. I explained to them that everything was fine and that my prayer was answered! That was 11 days, after he was admitted. On the 14th day, I was able to bring my son home, with me!
I know and understand the Lord better now and thank him for Steven every day. It was very difficult to place my son in His hands, but now every time I look at my 16 year old son, I am so, VERY glad I did!
I hope this helps someone else that is going through trials. It's not always easy to do what is best, but it is always easy for God to do what's best for you. When the Lord touches your life, the way He did mine many times, please don't forget to thank Him and remember who it was that helped you and stayed with you along the way.
Thank you for your time. Have a wonderful day.
Take care and God bless.